Bleh

And on top of all of that..

All I wanna do is surf. I want Cali to come. I wanna sit under the sun. I wanna be able to not worry about work. I want closure. I want peace at mind. I want the beach.

Fuck these emo posts. All this small shit is really starting to get to me.

The side effects of bodybuilding

Before anything is said let's look at the title of this post, note bodybuilder. I've been thinking about this for sometime now and came tho the conclusion that I do indeed fall into the category of "bodybuilder".

If a group of guys play soccer, or football as some may say, then those guys are referred to as soccer players, amirite? Yes, they practice the sport and play it regularly. Therefore this makes them soccer players, or footballers, depending on which side of the planet ur on hehe. The same applies to all sports whether they are team sports such as soccer or individual sports such as chess, swimming or surfing. I may not be the biggest guy around, but I'm still a bodybuilder. I train, and therefore build my body.

With this territory comes a dark and quite frankly, rather unpleasant side, as which is experienced in most sports. Right now, I think I'm experiencing some of these darker side of the bodybuilding life. I've been in a diet for the last month and a half, after a little hiccup at the month mark I managed to pick it up again and am now at a solid 10kg minus. This has had a really bad toll on my mind and body tho, things I don't really want to write too much about tbh.

It's a tough routine and not everyone can accomplish it. Not saying that I'm better than anyone else, because as I just wrote up here, I had a few hiccups along my journey.. and I'm only halfway! So I recently discovered I have sustained a few injuries, both outside and inside of my body due to dieting and overtraining. Dieting is good and all for the body, but if you do it wrong and combine it with over training and being greedy for fat loss then its not such a good thing.

Being sick lately has also helped to my injuries with swollen glands, sore throats and loads of flem being coughed up. Now when I'm finally on medication another thing pops up to hinder my progress, these two injuries

I feel like I could tear someone's throat out, so much rage and anger for being so stupid that I could do this to myself. The pain fuels my aggression which is directed to myself, and my head just starts doing 180s. (No, I'm not cutting myself haha) Sure its only putting me back about two or three weeks, but those are gonna be some long ass weeks, can tell you that now.

There's only one person I really wanna be with right now, but that person is so far from me right now. I don't even know if they think of me anymore. We'll see I guess.

Crystalised

Liking both versions atm, one by The XX and the other by Gorillaz.
Both songs just appeal to me, strangely enough considering my very different music taste - hiphop.

The XX

Gorillaz version right here..

Lez go

Time is going by kinda half fast.. ish

So been super busy, fixing the last of the stuff needed for CALI! Das right, santa barbara is just looking more and more real by the day. Been hanging a lot with Robin lately, some people were outta town but it was cool.

We all went out the other night, to a friend of mines 20th. Me john robin and some others started randomly attempting to freestyle haha, was epic. Met some new people, some girl who was a massive hypercondriact haha. kinda sad, she was cute.. from a far haha :P

Anyways, only a few things left to fix, that being a copy of my passport and the application fee then im free to send off my app to SBCC!

Lotta stuff has been going through my head lately too, dont know what to do or think of it. Its quite strange to be honest, being alone is both scary and exciting yet i still find myself reflecting and reminiscing back to previous months.. i prob shouldnt do it since it makes me feel quite sad and emo, but at the same time it makes me smile remembering the times <3

Maybe another post later tonight about something less boring but for now..

peace out

Russias Toughest Prisons

Was out last night pretty late, chillin n grillin around town. Decided to head home at 3am and watch Russias Toughest Prisons. The shit i saw there was crazy, total self confinement, no contact with other prisoners except your cell mate. Man, this place was crazy.. Black Dolphin Prison, some where in Siberia lol. Would DEFF not wanna be stuck there. Heres a pic of one of the inmates, aka the Cannibal.

"For the first time, three prisons across Russia unlock their doors to an international film crew. From a Siberian prison camp where temperatures plummet to 50 below to the highest security prison, where cannibals, terrorists and serial killers will live out the rest of their days, caged like animals. And, a pass inside infamous Vladimir Central — at over 200 years old, it’s held an estimated one million inmates. Inside Black Dolphin, a cannibal talks openly about his crime, divulging how he boiled, fried and ate his murder victim. In Vladimir Central, a convict opens up about killing his brother-in-law for disturbing his daughter’s peaceful night’s sleep. And inside a Siberian prison camp, we meet two friends about to go their separate ways when one gets paroled."

Russias Toughest Prisons

Splitting atoms in our backyard, literally..

So, was reading the news the other day and found this article.. What a retard, honestly.

"A Swedish man has been arrested after attempting to split the atom in his own home.

Amateur scientist, Richard Handl, admitted his 'project was to build a working nuclear reactor'. He managed to acquire radioactive chemicals, tried to cook them but only managed to blow up his stove.

The 31-year-old claimed there was nothing sinister in his actions but that the work was his hobby."

The article continues reporting he called the Radiation Board and asked whether what he was doing was illegal.. Duh?

"Splitting the atom requires a great deal of expertise. It cost the U.S, Britain and Canada around $2billion, using around 130,000 people, to work out how to do it in 1939.

What the scientists discovered was that splitting a uranium-235 atom unleashed gigantic quantities of energy in a nuclear fission chain reaction.

It is split from being bombarded with neutrons. This releases more neutrons and more energy. The new neutrons then collide with more uranium-235 atoms, which in turn split again and release more neutrons and further quantities of energy, and so on.

Nuclear reactors are designed to release the energy steadily, while nuclear bombs are engineered to release it all at once. They are able to do this because they are stocked with uranium that contains higher levels of uranium-235, also known as enriched uranium.

This is a heavily monitored substance – and trying to obtain any is likely to land you in big trouble."

Remember kids: ALWAYS use a reactor when splitting dem atoms.

Check the full article here at Daily Mail UK

Hakuna matata lez go!

Better or Worse?

Times are changing, and with that so is mankind. People change daily, from smaller everyday changes such as hair and clothing to personality and interests. I recently experienced one of these so called changes, quite a big and serious change for me actually. I was a bit taken aback by the initial change but i think, hopefully, that ill adapt to this new change in my life. At the same time there are many other things changing around me. Peoples lives are constantly changing and i am finally starting to take notice to that. For example, my friend just moved out of his house the other day hence his life is changing, for better or worse i cant tell, but im assuming its for the awesome? HEHE :p

Other things are changing nowadays too, like making plans to move to Santa Barbara with some friends and study two years there - i know community college isnt exactly Harvard, but its something and its not here in Sweden. I want the sun, i want the beach, i wanna surf, skate and just have a good time. Seriously cant wait till January, just hope that everything goes smoothly up until then.. Already had an unexpected/expected (kinda expected at least :P) change, that was my girlfriend of 18 months broke up with.. We kinda decided that life goes on and despite the fact we are both still in love with each other it would be for the best if we seperated and moved on. Both of us still hoping to stay friends and meet each other..

Either way, was out last night at some forest house (as in the music lol not a house house) party, was two different dj stations pumping music all night.. Was out till 6am this morning >_<

Heres my beauty, X, i love you<3

US open of Surfing is ON!!

Alright boys and girls! The US open of Surfing, at Huntington Beach in Cali has officially started! The Nike webcast is up and running with full coverage and commentating by the pro's! Heat #2 is now in the water, looks as if they are running the womens heats first.

http://www.usopenofsurfing.com/live.cfm

Heres the link once again, and a clip to On my level by Wiz!

Laters

First day back at gym..

Right so, first day back at gym today was pretty crappy. My focus was so off today I couldnt really concentrate so good while counting reps and sets and just focusing in general. I've tried some of those pre-workout formulas before, the pump and rush is good (at least the physical side) but im not so sure about the mental side, maybe it will help me focus? I know i was pretty wide awake at one point at like 5am before work, started at 7 that day was a pretty slow day hehe.. :p

Anyways, super off track. Or actually have no idea what the track is today. Gotta head out to meet some guys, they are gonna chill but im deciding not to chill. Will see how it goes, if i can hold myself haha. Sometimes i wish life was as easy as Wiz'

One can only dream..

Digging this guys music at the moment, a few songs to check out are roll up, on my level and fly solo. All pretty interesting, seems like he has gone for a new kind of approach to the whole hiphop seen. It's pretty chill

Lez go (to town :P)